Yeah I see a trend starting here... I always fall into it whenever I do online journals and logs and crap.
I only seem to really make entries when I'm all angsty and dark-souled about something or other that might seem (at least momentarily) significant to me but is probably very inane to others. Yeah, that.

Welp, now that I've put it into words and called myself out on it, that means I can go ahead and do it anyways and just be all like "that's how I roll. "

Cool, cool. Alright, glad I got that all cleared up and out of the way. Nice.
 
Like I was starting to say in my headline, I'm not too sure what to make of anything. I feel like I should have a better idea of how to view my overall situation. I don't know... I can see all the dots, ordered A, B, C, ect, but I can't seem to find a damn pen or pencil to connect them with.
And that is undesirable!

To start off the specifics of "my situation": I have no idea what to think about this girl I've been hanging out with and possibly have a crush on. (From here on I'll just call her "K".) I get a lot of mixed signals. She'll seem interested in being more than 'just' friends for a bit, then she'll seem like she's deliberatly trying to keep things platonic, then she'll maybe not respond or ever acknowledge some calls or txts for awhile, and she'll do any of those other things in random order for random amounts of time. Random, I tell you.

I even told her once that she wasn't in any way obligated to socialize with me just because we're taking the same program at school, and she reassured me that I had nothing to worry about and that she liked hanging out with me and that she wouldn't humor anyone in general.
I also gathered from talking to her for awhile that she's still a little socially limited and has to show a little more restraint in some ways because she's still under her parent's thumb at the moment. That'll change when she moves into my area this fall though, and I'm hoping that I was the one she had to restrain herself from.
But you can't eat hope, so I just have to be patient I guess.

Oh yeah and the other thing about the whole thing with her that makes me so unsure is that she is younger than me by about four and a half years.  It has not come up at all in conversation, and I'm really hoping that it is not a thing... I mean I wouldn't like, blame her if it was a thing for her, but just not knowing makes me hesitant about 'persuing' a relationship with her. I don't want to come off as a creep.

There was more stuff I was gonna whine about but I don't feel like it right now.

The Doctor is in.